We had an intervention of sorts today. I thought it was going to be a working out of things, but I felt more attacked than anything. I feel battered and bruised and hardly hopeful that anything will change.

I single handedly seem to be discrediting this person’s reputation at work. She is angry over stuff from last fall that I didn’t even know about. I am selfish and unhelpful and disingenuous and not a team player and …

Am I these things?

Have I not spent eleven months trying to raise the caliber of communications and getting marketing tools in place for people to use? Have I not ended up working last minute time and time again while watching the tasks I’ve asked to be done fall by the wayside over and over?

I am not saying I’m perfect. I am not.

However, I am not the person she believes me to be.

I honestly cannot see how today’s meeting helped. She said that she could walk away from her frustration and anger at me and start anew, but I am not hopeful. We are to avoid email and use the phone. I am not hopeful that will happen either.

Where is that attitude adjustment when you need it?

It is business, not personal. It is business, not personal. It is business, not personal.