Long, long, long day.

Last night during a phone call, one guffaw too many left me coughing and wheezing again.  I battled asthma until after 4:00 AM, got up a few hours later, and headed to work.  I coughed and wheezed all day, even during this marathon meeting we had.  While five people were in the meeting, somehow I was the only one "capable" of taking notes on the computer, so even though I started seeing stars and had to use my nebulizer...I had to juggle holding the machine to my mouth and typing.

Frustrating.

    O LORD, rebuke me not in Your wrath,
         And chasten me not in Your burning anger.
    For Your arrows have sunk deep into me,
         And Your hand has pressed down on me.
    There is no soundness in my flesh because of Your indignation;
         There is no health in my bones because of my sin.
    For my iniquities are gone over my head;
         As a heavy burden they weigh too much for me.
    My wounds grow foul and fester
         Because of my folly.
    I am bent over and greatly bowed down;
         I go mourning all day long.
    For my loins are filled with burning,
         And there is no soundness in my flesh.
    I am benumbed and badly crushed;
         I groan because of the agitation of my heart.
    Lord, all my desire is before You;
         And my sighing is not hidden from You.
    My heart throbs, my strength fails me;
         And the light of my eyes, even that has gone from me.
    My loved ones and my friends stand aloof from my plague;
         And my kinsmen stand afar off.
    Those who seek my life lay snares for me;
         And those who seek to injure me have threatened destruction,
         And they devise treachery all day long.
    But I, like a deaf man, do not hear;
         And I am like a mute man who does not open his mouth.
    Yes, I am like a man who does not hear,
         And in whose mouth are no arguments.
    For I hope in You, O LORD;
         You will answer, O Lord my God.
    For I said, "May they not rejoice over me,
         Who, when my foot slips, would magnify themselves against me."
    For I am ready to fall,
         And my sorrow is continually before me.
    For I confess my iniquity;
         I am full of anxiety because of my sin.
    But my enemies are vigorous and strong,
         And many are those who hate me wrongfully.
    And those who repay evil for good,
         They oppose me, because I follow what is good.
    Do not forsake me, O LORD;
         O my God, do not be far from me!
    Make haste to help me,
         O Lord, my salvation!


Even though my last dose of meds was five and a half hours ago, I am still trembling.  I tremble inside as well.  Strange.  Frightening.  It hurts when I breath and I am still coughing from time to time so I should nebulize again, but I do not want to...I want to just sleep for a few days...the epipen does that to me.

No rest for the weary, though.  Not until after the festival June 5th.  I honestly am not sure how I can keep up the pace until then.  SIGH.


I am Yours.  Save me!