I am trying to think of this day, to remember how it went. I am trying to recall what I accomplished, what I managed to do. I cannot remember.


I keep thinking about yesterday and everything it was, everything it wasn't.

I keep thinking about my job, everything it is, everything it isn't, everything it could be.

I keep thinking about the words hurled at me last week, changing my life in but a moment.


I awoke last night (this morning) at 3:00 am and could not go back to sleep. I tried for hours. I cried for hours. I prayed. I read the bible. I logged onto the server and worked. But really...it was all for naught.

I know I stumbled my way through this day.